Me and the Weather

The past week, the weather had been a series of heavy rains, raindrops, cloudy skies, and some sunshine. And as if in melody, my own feelings went with the weather. When it’s going to rain, or when dark clouds hung in the skies, I feel gloomy and sad, as if nothing good is going to happen to me that day. And when a little sunshine would show up in the middle of or late in the day, I become excited and more energized to do my tasks. I realized how dependent my feelings were to the weather, and so I asked myself why I acted that way. Have I just been going with the weather, or am I really like that, changeable as the weather?

The latter option makes me afraid, because that’s the last thing I would want to be, to be as changeable as the weather. I want to be strong. I want to be firm. I want to be reliable, and not just go with the flow, or in this case, with the climate’s changes.

**Sigh!!!**

Well, I guess, I still don’t know myself that much after all. This is again another time of self-evaluation, enhancement, and changes. But at least now, I caught a glimpse of how I had been, and how I am going to resolve it. I am just glad that after all, I know I still can be changed. By the grace of God, I know I’m not yet a finished product. God Almighty is still at work in me. :)