FAVORS OF A “TAKAS QUEEN”
“Takas Queen pala ako Lord?... hehehe…” I blurted out when I realized how many times I have tried to escape God’s lessons for me, by making out excuses. Meanwhile, I thought those excuses were "valid", until He rebuked me.
“Em, if you will continue to ask that you will be spared from all those heartaches and pains, you will miss out on the valuable things I will be teaching you along the process.”
“But Lord, can I still not ask You to spare me?”
“Of course you can, and it’s best that you will, but it doesn’t mean you will really not go through them.”
“But Lord, don’t You have pity for me?”
“Of course I do! It’s for that very reason in fact, that I want you to go through these hurts and pains because only in so doing can you come out strong. You can’t be strengthened if you won’t be exposed to them. Pity is such an understatement, but if you say so, then yes, I do have much, much pity for you. But I do love you.”
“Because Lord, I can’t bear the pain… I don’t like to cry!”
“Nobody does. I know. I know. But you have to.”
“Then Lord, if you see it best to mold me in this way, though I am not very happy with it honestly, then I have to trust in you, if I must, to break me still. Just grant me peace and grace to have joy within me, to know that it is You at work and not me and my paranoia.”
And then the silence of the morning became enjoyable for me, the hasty running to punch my time card in (to know that I was late, again, **deep sigh!**) became a funny scene, the heavy winds and rains of storm FRANK became my source of calm-searching, and the thoughts of praising God in any and every situation became my heart’s seeking.
“Ok then, Lord, I will.”
“Psalm 46:10.”
“Em, if you will continue to ask that you will be spared from all those heartaches and pains, you will miss out on the valuable things I will be teaching you along the process.”
“But Lord, can I still not ask You to spare me?”
“Of course you can, and it’s best that you will, but it doesn’t mean you will really not go through them.”
“But Lord, don’t You have pity for me?”
“Of course I do! It’s for that very reason in fact, that I want you to go through these hurts and pains because only in so doing can you come out strong. You can’t be strengthened if you won’t be exposed to them. Pity is such an understatement, but if you say so, then yes, I do have much, much pity for you. But I do love you.”
“Because Lord, I can’t bear the pain… I don’t like to cry!”
“Nobody does. I know. I know. But you have to.”
“Then Lord, if you see it best to mold me in this way, though I am not very happy with it honestly, then I have to trust in you, if I must, to break me still. Just grant me peace and grace to have joy within me, to know that it is You at work and not me and my paranoia.”
And then the silence of the morning became enjoyable for me, the hasty running to punch my time card in (to know that I was late, again, **deep sigh!**) became a funny scene, the heavy winds and rains of storm FRANK became my source of calm-searching, and the thoughts of praising God in any and every situation became my heart’s seeking.
“Ok then, Lord, I will.”
“Psalm 46:10.”
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