I am learning... Part 2
“May grace and peace be multiplied to [me] in the knowledge
of God and of Jesus our Lord.” (2 Peter
1:2, ESV)
This verse really struck me now, and I can’t believe I’ve
totally missed this before! This verse
just tells me that grace and peace can be multiplied in the knowledge of God
and of Jesus Christ. Or, another way of
saying it is that the knowledge of God and of Jesus Christ has the
capacity/power to multiply grace and peace to me.
Now, this struck me because I pride myself as someone who has
quite many knowledge of God and of Christ (as far as information is concerned). I mean, that’s why I’ve volunteered in a
student ministry even if I’ve already graduated in college, worked in a broadcast
ministry for seven years now, enrolled myself in theological and missions
courses, read my Bible in three different versions already, and having Philip
Yancey and CS Lewis as my favourite Christian writers. It’s because of these (and more) that I’ve gathered
many, many knowledge of God and of Christ already! I wouldn’t say though I have enough coz there’s
surely room for more, but then I wouldn’t also say I really lacked with the
basic knowledge. But then, I realize, to
my surprise and shame, that I lack grace for myself… and in fact, right now,
there’s just no peace in my heart! So many
matters, issues and concerns are bothering my thoughts.
Now, if I really say that I have knowledge of God and of
Christ, then why don’t I have this peace? Something must be wrong with my understanding
of God! Something’s amiss about my
perspective of God!
So, for the self-check now…
What have I come to know God so far, and how should that mean and matter
to me?
GOD IS LOVE. This is
the first thing that came to my mind.
Now, if God IS love, then something’s wrong about the way I understand this
because I keep on searching for love that goes really, really deep into
me. That God IS love should reach to me
so deep to the point that it will give me grace and peace and will multiply in
me. I really shouldn’t be anxious about
my singleness and sexuality because God’s love is what and should define me,
and gives me purpose.
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